Belief in God

I'd like to take a break from PHP work to talk to you about God. If you're a freelancer out there, struggling sometimes, turn to Him.

When you have enough people you care about pass away from this life, and you get to be my older age and start looking around and analyzing nature in great detail compared to a carefree childhood, you begin to appreciate things, and you may accidentally find yourself believing in God. Now, I might not convince you of a belief in a son of God, nor really do I care to do so. But I do want to say what I believe.

The Earth is located in a tiny, miniscule portion of a vast universe, held in a fragile state around violent, whirling planets and a star (the Sun) that has tremendous gravitational forces on us and can hurt us just as easily as it helps us. The poles are held in a fragile state such that if you moved them just a few degrees, the Earth would have major weather catastrophes.

Now visit an aquarium museum and look at jellyfish under blacklights. Some are so small and are like saucers of glass, and yet think about that. They reproduce, flash colors to attract a mate or warn them, fight for food, defend each other or themselves, sometimes mutate every once in a millennium, sense things, can sting, and yet when you go looking for a brain, you can't find it. And if you slice them in half, they still live in some cases.

And if you take starfish, and uses motion photography to speed it up, you see that it too defends itself, fight others for food, and so on, and yet doesn't have a definable brain as well.

Now look at a cadaver diagram in pictures in a health book -- the kind with translucent pages that you can flip through and examine the human body -- and you will be amazed in how complex and organized everything is in our bodies and brains.

To me, there is order in this chaos. We could be hurt or destroyed so easily in this universe, never heard from again. But on and on we wake up every morning, and here we are. And some heavenly hand must guide everything around us, and I cannot believe, I cannot comprehend it, if it were not for a God.

In my life, I grew up an atheist in an atheist family. And it's taken me years to believe in a God, to believe in the power of prayer, and to believe in an afterlife.